i was drifiting through the day with my eyes half closed, half awake because i didnt sleep last night. insomnia was washing over me, and i guess to finally be reunited with a guitar filled me with ecstasy no one can explain. i am still finding it hard to explain but im trying to...

so i spent around more than 5 hours with my guitar... the rest of the sleepless night, i was just lounging, sitting, doing practically nothing... i have become an expert at staring off to space and just going blank. i think i should do it professionaly.

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i should be sleeping. but once again, i am thinking of things that are useless and wasting my time on fruitless endeavors that would only end up with a substantial amount of loss in my part. But in life, we gamble everything, take risks, and put our hearts on the line... most of the time we lose, but just the one time we win makes up for all the loss we ever encountered.

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ok so i made this post about a day ago... or osmethng. and i have had this happen to me for soooo manyyy milliooon times. even really close friends never call to say hey... usually they need something or they want to ask for a favor... and i am a sucker for that. i am a sucker for doing favors. or so it seems. maybe its the inherent need to be liked and to please people.

 

 

i do not therefore conclude... (the beginnings of a totalitarian statement except that i conclude to contradict.)

 

sometimes we judge too quickly especially when we are on the receiving end... whether someone shouts at us, treats us wrongly, gives us the cold shoulder or gives us an indecent proposal we act quickly on marking these people as 'bad'. i mean, there are a million factors that should be evident before we make such judgements... and i think an isolated incident is not sufficient for such labelling.

 

so maybe i am too soft. maybe. because just a slight bit of friendship and kindess, or even just a hint of decency has already convinced me that there is more to this person than i must have concluded. I have not blogged the issue formally, but i have made my disappointments evident. so im sorry for those who emphatized because i might be changing my mind (again)...

 

ill give it some more time before i finally brand him and shut the books. right now, maybe all this person needs is someone who would try to understand, reprimand and maybe, change him...

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i didnt sleep again. im going to be tired and sloppy at work tomorrow, i mean today. i mean maybe i shouldnt come to work... lol

i want to be a rockstar... seriously.

 

When a guy calls you, he wants to be with you
FICTION: actually i think when a guy calls you, he wants you to do him a favor. i mean, seriously, its a rare thing for guys to just randomly call anyone. the male specie are users, they will never remmber you unless they really need something from you.

 

When a guy is quiet, He's listening to you...
FICTION: when a guy is quiet, it means he is really distracted. he is so bored, he cannot stand listening to you that other ideas come popping into his head. most of the time it is games, electronics or other girls ... not you or whatever it is that you are saying.

 

When a guy is not arguing, He realizes he's wrong
FICTION: when a guys starts to keep quiet, he is so pissed, he wants you to shut up so he can leave the room.

 

When a guy says, "I'm fine, " after a few minutes, he means it
FACT: i have to agree with this one.

 

When a guy stares at you, he wishes you would care about him and
wonders if you do
FICTION: i just think when a guy stares, its either something is in your face or he is fantasizing about other things...

 

When you're laying your head on a guy's chest, he has the world
FICTION: i guess this would depend on the guy. when it is just some random guy, he has the opportunity to score... if it is your boyfriend, pretty much the same thing except that he loves you for it... if it is your friend, then he is entertaining the thought that he might score...

 

When a guy calls you everyday, he is in love
FICTION: when a guy calls you everyday, it means he wants yout o be his personal assistant.

 

When a (good) guy tells you he loves you, he means it
FACT: Guys never say this unless they really feel it. And there are times that even when they feel it they don't say it.

 

When a guy says he can't live without you, he's with you till your done
FICTION: it means that he enjoys having you around and that he wishes you would stick around some more... but it does not mean that he really can't live without you. guys move on after 24 hours.

 

When a guy says, "I miss you, " he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else
FICTION: when a guy says i miss you, it means they dont know what to say and want to have sometihng nice to say...

 

When a girl bumps into your arm while walking she wants you to hold her hand
FACT. girls are pretentious beings who act like they want to be conservative, but really want to be held all the time. seriously.

 

 

When u break a girls heart, she still feels it when u run into each other 3 years later
FACT when she's the really honest type. FICTION when she's a slut. When a girl is a slut, she is like a guy.

 

When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind.
FACT. Millions of things run through our minds, quiet or not.

 

When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply.
FACT. Girls do not stop arguing. And when they do stop, it only means they are thinking VERY DEEPLY what to argue about next or what to add to the previous argument to keep it going...

 

When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around.
FACT AND FICTION. It can either mean that, or she does not want to get caught cheating...

 

When a girl answers, "I'm fine, " after a few seconds, she is not at all fine.
FACT. Girls are very hard to understand.

 

When a girl stares at you (the smiling stare), she is wondering why you are so wonderful.
FICTION. When girls stare, they want you to kiss them or to hold them or to do something to them that involves affection. Im serious!

 

When a girl lays her head on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
FICTION. Something like the staring, when a girl gets this close, they want to be closer...

 

When a girl says that she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future.
FICTION. We say this because we want to feed the male ego.

 

When a girl says, "I miss you, " no one in this world can miss you more than that
FACT. yeah girls are very expressive about missing people.

 

When a girl is mean to you after a breakup she wants you back, but she's scared she'll get hurt and knows you're gone forever
FICTION. When a girl is mean after a breakup, it means you not only hurt their feelings, but their ego. They don't want you back, they want revenge.

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please note that this is just WHAT I THINK. does not necessarily mean it is applicable to you. However, i would have to say that everything that i wrote is true, though a bit generalized,

ty